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Tunnel

by Benedict Benjamin

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sausagelinkies This album holds a sound I can't quite explain, but it speaks to me.
Melancholy, falling in the ruts life leaves us, and the bittersweet feeling of watching life go on, it all combines into a fantastic ride.
The floaty, reverberating instrumentation tickles my ears in just the right way as well.
This album has a firm spot in my top 10 of all time. Favorite track: Despite.
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1.
I got drunk alone Watching TV Thinking about what’s yet to come Kissed my daughters head While she was sleeping Stayed there till I saw the sun, saw the sun Furlough blues How about you? Waiting for some good news To interrupt the truth Everyday’s the same There’s no difference Used up all my good ideas I’m drowning in time With no ending Hold it all together dear Furlough blues How about you Waiting for some good news To interrupt the truth What’s today's date?
2.
See you walking out with that saleswoman’s smile Gonna ask them if you can play too Now you’re coming back with a face full of fire Guess those fuckers just weren’t ready for you Oh it’s not fair there’s no law that links together effort and reward You don’t wanna play anymore and I can’t blame you Try to cheer you up but there’s a crack in your cup I can see that it’s still eating you Oh other kids are such fucking dicks They don’t deserve to breathe the air you do Oh it’s not fair there’s no law that links together effort and reward You don’t wanna play anymore and I can’t blame you Wish I did not have to teach you to live With all of this bullshit Something in your eye as you started to smile As you pushed that kid and took his ball I should have played the cop but didn’t want you to stop As you kicked it hard over the wall
3.
Nursery 03:32
It breaks you down She still finds it hard to say goodbye But soon as i’m out of her sight She gets on with it, been making friends with other kids They tell me that she’s doing fine All of the small Accepted heartbreaks That you must swallow down Like bitter medicine All of the hurt That you must go through So commonly felt that Not valid anymore All of the guilt That you feel daily That you’re failing in some way You can’t determine All of the pain That you must handle Pales in comparison to the love in my heart The love in your heart The love in your heart The love in your heart
4.
White Noise 03:18
The spinning rock that we live on top came to a standstill yesterday That breath intake when what couldn’t shake ever so slightly starts to sway It’s all noise until someone starts singing from the heart It’s all noise till you take a long look into the dark The mask has slipped fabric torn and ripped though some still choose to look away Though the streets are clear something happened here there’s a sleeping giant awake The noise and fear, sound fury and tears will exhaust itself and abate Though life returns and the sun still burns all that anger still lies in wait It’s all noise until someone starts singing from the heart It’s all noise till you take a long look into the dark It’s hard to take the blame when you’re not used to being wrong We don’t question out history here how we got to this happy end The parts we hide and the ghosts inside will unbury themselves again
5.
Drinking in the day again To make the hours run It’s been slowing like a knife that’s being twisted Hardly spoken to my friends Or really anyone I’m so grateful to the couple that persisted Hanging by a thread Trying to keep it all in check I lost my grip a while ago And haven’t found it yet But I will keep searching I will smoke it out for you I was feeling fine Before it all tore through my mind And then suddenly I lost it and was reeling That’s happened a few times It’s just sneaks up upon me blind Oh I Guess I don’t know how I’m really feeling Hanging by a thread Trying to keep it all in check I lost my grip a while ago And haven’t found it yet But I will keep searching I will smoke it out for you Like that mattress in the street That’s been rained on this whole week I felt too heavy to be lifted I can see you suffering I know you need some help We’re all running on the least I’ve ever run on You look after me I’m gonna do my best for you Gonna summon all the grit that love can summon
6.
Sad Song 02:43
I was seventeen Too stoned to go out Getting drunk alone In my parents house Wanted to be quiet Cos my head felt loud Fore I met you I never let it out No sad song made me feel blue How I did fore I met you Oh I had some friends But none that I know now I felt more alone When they were around My grandpa died round then Cancer ground him down Something changed in me And I acted out No sad song made me feel blue how I did fore I met you But things would get better I just wouldn’t know till later I know when you grow up You’ll know your share of pain I learned a lot from mine And you’ll do the same Can’t say I’ll see that clear When my hearts breaking But without the dark The light wouldn’t show a thing
7.
Despite 03:14
Despite all the love i’ve been shown All the care and the tenderness All of the time and pieces of your mind I still find myself feeling like shit Despite all the love I’ve been shown The hands that you lent me to hold The warmth of your heart that brought light to the dark I still find myself feeling alone Despite all the love I’ve been shown I never learned how to be tough With each blow I roll but its taking a toll Are you all just made of sterner stuff Does it get easier to cope Or easier to fake that you’re fine Is anyone sane under all of the strain How does anyone stay in the lines. I’m trying to keep my mind If I have been shown all this love How do people cope who have not I’m only just learning how tough life can turn I salute those keeping their heads up To everyone carrying on Still finding the strength left to smile Still playing your part shrapnel lodged in your heart After trial after trial after trial
8.
Petrol 05:14
I stared at the moon As I got petrol Somewhere out on the M4 I paid and I left I smiled and said thank you 200 miles from your door My heart still Doesn’t beat right until I’m home sleeping by your side It’s not like it’s Not had enough practice Guess it won’t ever feel right I hadn’t said a word In maybe 2 hours Was starting to feel erased I put on a tape And sang along with it Was thinking about your face My heart still Doesn’t beat right until I’m home sleeping by your side It’s not like it’s Not had enough practice Guess it won’t ever feel right I am lonesome and in love with you I’ll be home soon
9.
Dickhead older brother And overbearing mother Wasn’t much room at home for you I’d come round to your house On wednesdays when they were out And kiss you till both our lips were bruised I wonder how you are I wonder how you are I always mean to write And then don’t Her brother became a banker Her mother died of cancer Her Dad never played much of a role I heard she had a baby Her brother he went crazy Was born again to reclaim his soul I wonder how you are I wonder how you are I always mean to write And then don’t People grow apart Toughen their tender hearts But I’m sure you're still the girl I knew

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released June 9, 2023

Written, played and recorded by Ben Rubinstein
Drums by Alex Reeves

Mixed by Dan Blackett
Mastered by Suade Bergemann

Artwork by Ben Rubinstein
Layout by Jasper Sutherland

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Benedict Benjamin London, UK

Benedict Benjamin is Ben Rubinstein, formerly of The Mariner’s Children and Peggy Sue
(Wichita). His debut album ‘Night Songs’ is a collection of timeless compositions recorded in a
series of churches, bedrooms and kitchens across London and Kent with producer Dan Blackett
(Landshapes, Bella Union).
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